The New Chapter Begins

Semester break is almost over, but I had to came back early to Arau. My duties as the Majlis Perwakilan Pelajar(MPP) shall be carried out. As an MPP, I was automatically assigned to be the OC for the intake of new students. The new semester will be more challenging because apart from the MPP task, my squad Batch 24 for ROTU was promoted to intermediate level. It means that we will have junior. 

Kindly ignore all that, now we go to the main story. What was happening to me and that girl? Actually, we are still in touch via SMS. She has started to familiarize herself with the environment in Shah Alam. She admitted that the culture in Shah Alam is far different from Arau. She asked me to visit her if I have a free time and promised that she would pay for my food when I came. She also told me that there are several people attempt to approach her. Why she told me that? However, she did not respond to them with my guidance although at that time we are still did not have any special relationship.

Approximately 2 months strengthen the relationship, I am increasingly sure with what I feel but I am not sure if she also had the same feeling. However, I still need to express these feelings before it is too late. One night, I told her that I have something important to say to her, but not through SMS. I need to speak directly to her and she agreed. I immediately contact her and express my feelings. Frankly, I do not know how to use flowery words. So I tell her directly. Guess what her answer, she said that she is not ready to be in love and just want to be friend first.

My Broken Heart

I feel really disappointed at that time. Is it possible that she have choosing someone else? Am I too late? But it's okay, perhaps she needs time to make a decision. Since then, I stopped contacting her. Give her space. About a week, she SMS me and asking why I do not SMS her as always and what happened to me. She behaved like I never said anything to her and nothing happened before. I do not want to bring up again the story and straightly reply that I was a little busy with my studies and MPP tasks. I was surprised with this situation, but thinking that she still wants to be friends with me made ​​me feel better. I had to keep this feeling temporarily even though I did not know until when I had to endure.
 

We became long-distance best friends even though there is no doubt that I still have feelings for her. None of my squad knows about it. They just know that only one person that tried to approach that girl but not me.  However, the opportunity is still open because I knew that she still has no special boyfriend. Why do in the world I still pursuing for her love? Maybe I too believe in such a strange dream that I told before or maybe I was completely in love with her? Even I close my eyes on other girls who tried to draw my attention. What is all this? Only God knows why.

To be continue...