The New Chapter Begins

Semester break is almost over, but I had to came back early to Arau. My duties as the Majlis Perwakilan Pelajar(MPP) shall be carried out. As an MPP, I was automatically assigned to be the OC for the intake of new students. The new semester will be more challenging because apart from the MPP task, my squad Batch 24 for ROTU was promoted to intermediate level. It means that we will have junior. 

Kindly ignore all that, now we go to the main story. What was happening to me and that girl? Actually, we are still in touch via SMS. She has started to familiarize herself with the environment in Shah Alam. She admitted that the culture in Shah Alam is far different from Arau. She asked me to visit her if I have a free time and promised that she would pay for my food when I came. She also told me that there are several people attempt to approach her. Why she told me that? However, she did not respond to them with my guidance although at that time we are still did not have any special relationship.

Approximately 2 months strengthen the relationship, I am increasingly sure with what I feel but I am not sure if she also had the same feeling. However, I still need to express these feelings before it is too late. One night, I told her that I have something important to say to her, but not through SMS. I need to speak directly to her and she agreed. I immediately contact her and express my feelings. Frankly, I do not know how to use flowery words. So I tell her directly. Guess what her answer, she said that she is not ready to be in love and just want to be friend first.

My Broken Heart

I feel really disappointed at that time. Is it possible that she have choosing someone else? Am I too late? But it's okay, perhaps she needs time to make a decision. Since then, I stopped contacting her. Give her space. About a week, she SMS me and asking why I do not SMS her as always and what happened to me. She behaved like I never said anything to her and nothing happened before. I do not want to bring up again the story and straightly reply that I was a little busy with my studies and MPP tasks. I was surprised with this situation, but thinking that she still wants to be friends with me made ​​me feel better. I had to keep this feeling temporarily even though I did not know until when I had to endure.
 

We became long-distance best friends even though there is no doubt that I still have feelings for her. None of my squad knows about it. They just know that only one person that tried to approach that girl but not me.  However, the opportunity is still open because I knew that she still has no special boyfriend. Why do in the world I still pursuing for her love? Maybe I too believe in such a strange dream that I told before or maybe I was completely in love with her? Even I close my eyes on other girls who tried to draw my attention. What is all this? Only God knows why.

To be continue...

Starting the Relations

Finished answering the examination questions. Although under pressure to think about how to start a conversation with her​​, thank God I still able to answer all the exam questions. I was among the earliest to leave the examination hall. By the way, I still need to find a solution as quickly as possible, then I suddenly remembered that today is her birthday. Haha, can not remember how I found out that. Therefore, I've got the idea. Maybe I can start off by wishing happy birthday to her. Luckily, I had asked for her phone number this morning but I have to pack up first, my mom and dad will arrive at any time. I got a call from my mom that they have reached nearby the Affinbank ATM machine because they did not know where is my hostel. I told her just wait there, I will be come shortly.

Because of time constraint, I just packed everything into this bag.

Time to leave Arau. But there are things that are still pending. I took the phone and start typing the SMS, I wish happy birthday to her and remind her to take care of herself when at Shah Alam later on. I also hope that she can quickly adapt to the new atmosphere there. Then she replied, thank you and ask who I am? I purposely did not tell who I am, because I knew she did not save my number in her mobile phone. I told her to guess who I am. She responded by asking me not to mess with her ​​and introduce myself quickly. I still challenging her to guess and state that she definitely be able to find the answer. However she did not reply anymore. Could she have no time to treat my prank? I began to feel uneasy.

Suddenly there is an SMS, she replied that she already knew who I was and asked how I found out that today is her birthday. I did not tell her and said that it was my secret. Luckily, she also did not bother to know more about it. Since then we began to SMS each other. At that time, I have already entered the highway on the way back to KL and she still have one more paper for her final exam. I just wish her luck and I hope to see her again in the future. Our relationship is now began, but just as a friend first because I still need to know more about her and it was too early for me to express my feelings. But I have to remember that I still have to compete with my squad to win her heart.

 To be continue...

Reserve Officer Training Unit (ROTU)

In a busy day of registration of university admission, in my mind just thinking about when I can sign up for the Reserve Officer Training Unit (ROTU) which I found out that the unit is available in UiTM Arau Campus. After finishing the morning session which enrolled course and hostel registrations, my mom and my dad had sent me to my temporary accommodation. I was told that in the afternoon then I can sign up for ROTU, I need to rest well because I can feel that the registration is not as easy as filling the registration form only. After sending mom and dad at the gate, melancholy face emitted from the face of my dear mom. Leaving her eldest son wandering far, it ought to make her sad. However, what can I do. The important thing is I have to convince them that I can take care of myself and be independent even being far away from them.

The time finally arrived, I rushed to the hall for registration. My guess turned out right. After filling the form, we have been instructed to change to the sports wear and regroup within 15 minutes (if I'm not mistaken). Once assembled, we went through a fitness test which we must pass to advance to the the next level. Luckily I passed. Now to the the next level, the IQ test. I have passed both tests together with about 60++ students. Although education was a priority, training is a subject which I was waiting for. Here is my love story begins.

Despite the painful sacrifices of the training, I had scout a girl in my squad. Far behind the robustness training, I saw the beauty and tenderness of her heart. I have seen her in my dreams before, she became my wife in that dream. This is strange, I'm not even know and never saw her before at that time. I began to know her but what could I do, I found out that she also have been targeted by one of my squad where I was too late to convey my feelings because they have already started communicating with each other. Maybe she is not my soul mate, I had to forget all my feelings. However, I still haunted by the strange dreams that she was to be my wife. 

The relationship between my squad with her is still not finalize. Their relationship so far only as normal friends. Apparently, there is a chance for me to get her heart. I found out that she would be transferred to Shah Alam Campus next semester, but I still do not know how should I begin to approach her. First saw her outside the training is when we share the same venue for the final examination for BEL200, I was stiff to say even a word. That was my last exam for the semester, and I knew after that I will not see her again because that afternoon mom and dad would pick me back, and next semester she has been in Shah Alam. In the stiffness, I gave her my call card. She just smiled and left after the invigilator began to call everyone to enter the examination hall. That was the last time I saw her in Arau Campus but I still could not express my feeling to her.

To be continue...